Too wise? i wonder.

okay its about our parents / adults near us...

wisdom comes with old age? well.. certain extent its true. i mean.. experiencing is perhaps one of the best ways to learn... its a fact. and thus older => more experience in life. and thus => wiser.

hey. i'm god damn bloody wise. on the assumption that i am really 4 mil years old. ~ ~|.

and there's my grandma, and my aunt. my aunt is leaving for changchun today. so she wanna purchase some vege. that are "cheap" and fresh from the market.. so.. you know. down and dirty again. i came back from workout and bathed.. immediately summoned to be the guy to carry the stuff.. just great.. wasted water to bath T. T...

so we were on the way.. and i asked why buy those stuff.. and .. she did it in bulks.. bought like 20+ kg of stuff? she told me that there's no "soy sauce with out preservatives" in changchun.. so gotta buy here.. and to .. here's the worst part.. to save $..

fyi col of changchun is like so much lesser than beijing. and even if its transportation cost of the veges.. you can at most say save 1 RMB / kilo of stuff? thats like AT MOST! now lets just say she brought back 20kg of vege and each managed to save 1 rmb .. wow. thats 20 bucks.. now what exactly is the cost?.. the energy used to carry it.. to transport.. like for gods sake uncle came to pick her up for 3 days and each day cost around 200 rmb just to stay in the hotel.. and i guess he's here to help carry that vege to save up to 20rmb.. = =|.. so much for cost saving.

okay.. i shall not find any word to describe this incident incase it would be insulting.. and i do believe in the chinese culture of being filial and respectful to the older generation.. i shall. ><

after all i followed their instructions with out talking back right =s..

grandma was worried that i lose my way or meet a bad guy even if its less than 5 minutes walk away in the country's capital. now here's the thing. she blasted me when i wanted to bring my phone and wallet along when i go to the market.

now. for god's sake i dont know my god damn way around this fkin place just yet.. her philosophy is that if you dont bring it. it wont get stolen. okay. true. so if i dont bring them. wtf are they for. showing off? the thing about being pissed is that it feels like a loss of freedom. without phone and wallet there's so little thing that i can do.. besides walking back to the hse and... seriously.. just that. risk getting stolen? think again. the crime rate might be higher than sg. or the states. that does not mean every hour or every day or even every week there's a report loss in a messy market like that one.. worst come to worst.. that i'm so dumb and with zero ability to detect the thief myself... at least i'll feel it when its gone. esp. when extremely alert.. and throw a punch or two? or WORST COME TO WORST. my money and phone might be saving somebody in need. for gods sake nobody wants to be a thief. since there's a reason. they are fking poor and need the money. go ahead and take it. they're in a way better than beggers. at least they worked for the money.

there's just 1 more thing.. about being somebody.

grandma insists that i should bring a pajamas. i'm fine with that. just a lil lazy.. and she asked me to use a christian name... should stop wearing white so the dirt on the shirt dont show.. and that all i need is to study and to score... and stop socializing. in the context.. socializing was potrayed as talking to anybody online.. including now i guess =s.

i'm all fine with the practices and stuff... but the thing is that she insists that i should do it so that the peers will not "laugh at me".. and no talking to anyone? wow.. like for gods sake i've only got grandma and aunt to talk to. nobody of my age around. now is she trying to drive me into depression or what = =|.. okay i do ackowledge her goodwill in trying to remind me to keep reading and .. reading.. i like those stuff. its about human resource alright. but .. hey. dude. human resource. wth is human resource without the interaction man..

the "not laughing at me part".. wise? i can safely and perhaps proudly say i do adapt pretty well =s... to situations.. speak their language.. do as romans do while in rome.. and i know verywell its a should to do it.. not being weird and stuff.. its about respecting their culture and not being stubborn. a easier way to express myself to the future peers. she asked me to do those very surface sorta stuff.. so what if my shirt changed to grey.. dust will still fall and for gods sake i shouldn't be changing them? just using the colour so that ppl dont see it?... not worth commenting.

i told her.. and i think its pretty classic.. holds true.

The worse thing about pretending to be one of the majority and not be "yourself", is to pretend by copying on the surface and fail miserably.

mark my word man. i am who i am. i respect ppl, i blend in. my way. I am chinese and that is that. that yellow skin, black hair and my black eyes marks my identity. i do not represent the race, just myself, there's no way i'm avoiding that.