Another blue-sky day!

uh huh. another good day. today's even cooler. went down for a walk again. only thing uncomfortable is that all my skin felt too dry.. and i know i dont want moisturizers since i need to adapt.. >< arhh.. hope i'll adapt to dryness soon enough.

i shall catch up with a photo i took ystd afternoon.. there!. not bad huh xD


I've been reading lately.. alot. rather.

Business Week and Fortune. i even catched up on some previous issues to update myself about the crisis that i didn't bother while i was in Singapore, slacking my life away..

okay fine i'm still slacking my life away. but oh well. different style.

There's a book called Learning Journals that i've been trying to chew.. its a collection of stories of leaders in different fields on how they grow to be one.. wise words shared in the form of stories. here's the few questions that's rather significant:

- what are your native abilities and are you using them? how do you use them in the future? will ppl be proud of you?

this is rather against the chinese concept of being the best.. just mug on and climb to the top.. its about being what you're most comfortable doing. and do your teachers / parents proud. the thing is.. nowadays. they wont be proud of you unless you earn big bucks.. or will they?

-is your to-do list of the same weight as the to-learn list.

James Collins wrote this. okay. he may have some points there in saying that we should constantly be learning.. even from the people who seek answers from us. to grow. its more of a reminder to those big bosses out there... not to me i guess. i'd rather say i'll settle with my to-do list when i have to do smt... cos learning will be just a part of doing the thing that i am to do =s

the other stories so far. is more about learning.. if not all.

about learning effectively.. the best way. according to many. is to teach. cos there's this process of preparing.. teaching.. answering doubts.. which essentially would mean more thoughts into the issue..

there are many reminders about listening and learning.. understanding people so that one can manage better. or. on a higher level. learning from them and inspire them to understand their passion and drive in the job.

these are much of interpersonal stuff..

and there's some intrapersonal..

about knowing the destination and setting the "direction of travel"...
the guidelines.. principles in life that we keep to.. knowing where we're going in order to get there..
I think i know mine... do you know your's?

there's a tiny story. from the Naval Proceedings Manual.. which means the story true.. Stephen R Covey quoted it to explain our direction of travel and principles.. as direction of travel constantly change.. we must check our alignment constantly to head to our destinations... although i dont understand why he took principles as obstacles and said that "we dont break them as we will break ourselves against them.. bleah..

here goes.

On a dark and stormy night, the capt of a ship at sea recieved a frantic wake-up call.

"capt capt, wake up!"
"what is it"
"sorry to wake you, sir, but we have a real problem. "
"what is it"
"there's a ship in our sea-line, several miles away and they refuse to move."
"tell them to move."
"we have, sir, they just won't move."
"I'll tell them! move starboard 20 degrees."
the signal returned "move starboard yourself. 20 degrees"
"i can't believe this," roared the capt. "who's this joker? doesn't he know i'm the capt? tell him who i am"
"This is Capt Horatio Hornblower, the 26th, commanding you to move starboard 20 degrees, at once."
"this is seaman Carl Jones, the third, commanding you to move starboard 20 degrees, at once"
"i can't believe this. what arrogance. we're a battleship. we could blow them out of the water. Let him know who we are!"
"this is mighty Missouri, flagship of the 7th fleet."
the signal replied "this is the lighthouse"

...okay honestly this is just for laughs. if u aint laughing then my bad ><

from last few days of reading i've also came across an article about giving a talk to the finiance graduates of universities.. the couple was invited to give a talk to the graduates.. and the school reminded them not to mention certain phrases.. like.. "you're the best of the best" and "the future depends on you guys" or perhaps "the future is in your hands!"...

the graduates now adays are just more mature i guess.. they dont buy those crap anymore.. with the situation at hand they just wanna get tips for getting a job and climb the ladder.

they told the graduates alright. and i find it pretty true.. good common sense.

in short, expand the employer's expectations, exceed them. ignore the ideal work-life balance until we're earning enough.

good common sense and will stay true for a pretty damn long time. hey future me. if you're reading this. make sure you know what i've written.. man i hope i dont lose my memory by then.

Monday Blues.

nope. monday blues can be good too.

like for today.. monday, i woke up to realize the sky aint dusty anymore.. at least we can see the sky now. its blue! like.. there's clouds and stuff up there!!..

grandma and i took a walk in the garden this morning.. the wind is good =p ...the air quality improved a little. at least i'm not coughing.

here comes the photos!

BEFORE:


nice monday blue s[ky]:



and.. here's grandma
and another shot of her.
these are supposed to be filled with water btw = =|..


oh well =p. happy monday ppl!.. welcome back to sch? xD

Too wise? i wonder.

okay its about our parents / adults near us...

wisdom comes with old age? well.. certain extent its true. i mean.. experiencing is perhaps one of the best ways to learn... its a fact. and thus older => more experience in life. and thus => wiser.

hey. i'm god damn bloody wise. on the assumption that i am really 4 mil years old. ~ ~|.

and there's my grandma, and my aunt. my aunt is leaving for changchun today. so she wanna purchase some vege. that are "cheap" and fresh from the market.. so.. you know. down and dirty again. i came back from workout and bathed.. immediately summoned to be the guy to carry the stuff.. just great.. wasted water to bath T. T...

so we were on the way.. and i asked why buy those stuff.. and .. she did it in bulks.. bought like 20+ kg of stuff? she told me that there's no "soy sauce with out preservatives" in changchun.. so gotta buy here.. and to .. here's the worst part.. to save $..

fyi col of changchun is like so much lesser than beijing. and even if its transportation cost of the veges.. you can at most say save 1 RMB / kilo of stuff? thats like AT MOST! now lets just say she brought back 20kg of vege and each managed to save 1 rmb .. wow. thats 20 bucks.. now what exactly is the cost?.. the energy used to carry it.. to transport.. like for gods sake uncle came to pick her up for 3 days and each day cost around 200 rmb just to stay in the hotel.. and i guess he's here to help carry that vege to save up to 20rmb.. = =|.. so much for cost saving.

okay.. i shall not find any word to describe this incident incase it would be insulting.. and i do believe in the chinese culture of being filial and respectful to the older generation.. i shall. ><

after all i followed their instructions with out talking back right =s..

grandma was worried that i lose my way or meet a bad guy even if its less than 5 minutes walk away in the country's capital. now here's the thing. she blasted me when i wanted to bring my phone and wallet along when i go to the market.

now. for god's sake i dont know my god damn way around this fkin place just yet.. her philosophy is that if you dont bring it. it wont get stolen. okay. true. so if i dont bring them. wtf are they for. showing off? the thing about being pissed is that it feels like a loss of freedom. without phone and wallet there's so little thing that i can do.. besides walking back to the hse and... seriously.. just that. risk getting stolen? think again. the crime rate might be higher than sg. or the states. that does not mean every hour or every day or even every week there's a report loss in a messy market like that one.. worst come to worst.. that i'm so dumb and with zero ability to detect the thief myself... at least i'll feel it when its gone. esp. when extremely alert.. and throw a punch or two? or WORST COME TO WORST. my money and phone might be saving somebody in need. for gods sake nobody wants to be a thief. since there's a reason. they are fking poor and need the money. go ahead and take it. they're in a way better than beggers. at least they worked for the money.

there's just 1 more thing.. about being somebody.

grandma insists that i should bring a pajamas. i'm fine with that. just a lil lazy.. and she asked me to use a christian name... should stop wearing white so the dirt on the shirt dont show.. and that all i need is to study and to score... and stop socializing. in the context.. socializing was potrayed as talking to anybody online.. including now i guess =s.

i'm all fine with the practices and stuff... but the thing is that she insists that i should do it so that the peers will not "laugh at me".. and no talking to anyone? wow.. like for gods sake i've only got grandma and aunt to talk to. nobody of my age around. now is she trying to drive me into depression or what = =|.. okay i do ackowledge her goodwill in trying to remind me to keep reading and .. reading.. i like those stuff. its about human resource alright. but .. hey. dude. human resource. wth is human resource without the interaction man..

the "not laughing at me part".. wise? i can safely and perhaps proudly say i do adapt pretty well =s... to situations.. speak their language.. do as romans do while in rome.. and i know verywell its a should to do it.. not being weird and stuff.. its about respecting their culture and not being stubborn. a easier way to express myself to the future peers. she asked me to do those very surface sorta stuff.. so what if my shirt changed to grey.. dust will still fall and for gods sake i shouldn't be changing them? just using the colour so that ppl dont see it?... not worth commenting.

i told her.. and i think its pretty classic.. holds true.

The worse thing about pretending to be one of the majority and not be "yourself", is to pretend by copying on the surface and fail miserably.

mark my word man. i am who i am. i respect ppl, i blend in. my way. I am chinese and that is that. that yellow skin, black hair and my black eyes marks my identity. i do not represent the race, just myself, there's no way i'm avoiding that.

MARKEEEETT!

... i wanted to take photos but sorry.. for the sake of my phone not being stolen i was convinced not to take it along...

10 minutes walk.. to the huge.. dusty... smelly market that's full of ppl.. my grandma dont really negotiate.. ask for the prize then give.. - -| cos really cannot stand the smell and the heat. the thing about the market is that the stuff they sell lasts much longer than those from the super mart..

freshness you see..

thats the negative aspect of huge retailers compared to small business.. and thus they co-exist xD...
i can think econs too! mr tan will be so proud please.. thats my econs teacher btw.. he's going to get streetfighter for computer but the control was too ex. i think =s.

my skin is really dry now.. the air.. i guess i'll get use to it.. i'm doing great in keep working out everyday.. okay fine its just 3 days for now.. but i will go on! until i get my 6 pecs.. and keeping it xD...

this shall be it. good night ppl!!! 2ml's eating out for dinner again.. = =|.. hai..

the problem of eating out..

today's rather regular. worked out in the afternoon. there's a lady there that started walking before i was there and was still walking while i left.. i dont know but she really look much more professional than i am = =|.. i shall jiayou in my slimming down plan xD i'm sure i'll get pro too.

grandma was afraid that i'll eh.. not find my way or i dont know.. be kidnapped by a bad guy or something. but i still went out alone to the super mart to get some iodine for a toe wound and a chinese sim card! 50 rmb. i'm not sure this might last quite long - - hahaha. that's like 10 sing.
but might last me a month. i only know a few friends in this city. yepp! however its a lil too hot to play.. i wonder.. maybe i shld meet them still.

i've been to a publishing conference today.. in there.. i'm like the YOUNGEST. and most insignificant one around.. head of xxx.. chairperson of xxx.. prof. whatever.. xxx being some imba big sounding organizations in the field of publishing / chinese medicine.



the talk was rather interesting.. the content is one thing.. observing them is another. there're 5 speakers... lets just say the best speaker is the third.. he.. well. he's the head of the chinese medicine research in the country.. and.. many many.. many titles on his name too.. [he gave me his name card over the lunch table.. and here's how it looks like] ...the catch is that he's 78, and he's blind on the left eye, able to see only light, and the right being really weak in seeing too.. he's got a slanted mouth and he cant speak clearly because of that.. [heard he's got 3 major operations but none took his life.. one of them made the mouth slant]. ....

yes he's the best speaker there..

there's two authors.. one read from the script. he was standing up when he begin.. and somehow he just sat down in the middle of reading it.. he murmured and cant look up... the other author.. better in a sense. did not use a script. but he keep repeating himself. he's in a tao-ist suit thou.. good catch. but the content is close or equal to zero.. so =s.. he's out. then.. the 3rd's the good speaker i was talking about.. sensable and persuasive .. at least he cut his stuff short.. the 4th.. is eh.. very swaying speaker.. when i say sway is what he really do throughout his speech.. he's this extremeist that condemns all science and believe that the da dao [ big way ] which we cannot understand .. and nobody can really get the meaning.. cos there's no fixed meaning.. is the only thing that's in the way of preventing the end of the world. ...he tried to make it motivational.. like.. FUTURE IS IN OUR HANDS!..... i shall not comment any further.. the last guy.. eh.. from the commitee of nobel price nomination guy... he mumbles and he made getting nobel price sound like a piece of cake and too political... = =|

oh one more thing.. i was the only good audience who bother to listen with eye contact / or acturally face the speaker.. = =|.. everyone else were "busy" with their own stuff.. phone ringing... going in and out of the room.. etc etc...

okay.. they are all very very scholarly.. they can quote great ppl.. time.. and event.. quotes.. like nobody's business.. very knowledgeable indeed. respect.

now that's really the main content..

chinese food

i've absolutely nothing against chinese food... its good. tastes good. rather healthy.

there's just one thing. wastage. the culture says.. or shall i say unspoken thingy.. the guests wont be full until there's leftovers.. so.. you order alot.. the more you order.. the better the hospitality [potrayed] and people share plates of food. when there's food.. you try to eat more.. = =|.. there's nth like "your share"..

there were 16 different dishes on our table and its a table of 9... all 16 is large serving.


these were the 3rd layer of plates you see..

day 2. a decent life.

okay here's what day 2 is about.













had breakfast downstairs. buffet. but it was not really good. huge variety thou. my grandma and my auntie used fork and knife + spoon.. i simply used chopsticks.. = =|.. talking about westernized ppl. hahahaha. okay fine i did use fork later for my salad but thats really minimal. see! i'm a pure breed china man! woohoo. thats my grandma and aunt btw

i had trouble logging into blogspot the whole day. finally managed to come in at night..


okay thats shifting away from the time line.. back track to after breakfast.. went to gym.. ran for 20 minutes but only covered 2.7 km - =.. needa increase the speed.. start slow ^^.. there's a tv infront of the treadmill. discovery + running in a dry environment is really pleasant i must say. should be able to keep it up. there's no weights training machine thou. or whatever its called.. i'll just work with the dumbells =s.

grandma wanted to go to the supermarket.. First STEP for JIANNAN. onto the street and into the air.. it wasn't that bad acturally. morning sun is not so hot. dry environment is really nice. but i think i'll start to suffer on my skin too.. there's no hydration machine in the room.. or whatever its called.. *shrugs*. shall adapt. .. it was a first hand experience of the manpower in china.. there's so many staff in the market that i think its almost as many as the shoppers.. and there're ppl promoting the food and snacks for free tasting.. kena dao by everyone.. rather sad but oh well.. its their job right..

had a great nap in the afternoon.. must be the exercise.. mum called at night to ask me write essay. that is really wtf. i'm enjoying the magazines here thou. uncle booked fortune and business week sorta thing. will not get bored. ^^

*stretches. now, for the uploading of my photos!..



777. sia.
oh yeah. here's some photos of me on the plane.. hahaa. the thing special about this is that i dont have a camera with me. but mum asked me to take some photos.. so.. x. x.. i guess turning on the handphone wont be much of a problem. xD.. and i did! wasn't caught.. there were no signal up there so no harm.. here's some photos.. wasnt very special.. a little of cam whore-ing for me hehe

in BEIJING

the title says it all..

6 hours of flight. watched league of extraordinary gentleman, and pinkphanta 2.. i'm quite sure its not spelt this way but i honestly dont know how.. the flight was not pleasant. honestly.

the plane lowered its altitude 25 minutes before reaching the destination. my ear drums started to hurt. for the god damn 25 minutes it did not stop.. i tried inflating it and stuff. chewed gums.. nothing worked. i'm stuck at my seat since the "seatbelts on" light is on and that ear drum pain is killing me.. when i finally touch down the system said its 38 degrees on the ground.. "wtf." that's the response. but it wasn't really that bad.. i think. i didnt really get into the sun and i have absolutely no intention to. getting that sun would also mean breathing in beijing air .. woohoo.

the only good thing is that the gym is within the building i live right now. it wld be convinent.

oh .. and coming out of the plane was ultra unpleasant too... medical crew came up the plane before letting us into the airport to check our temp 1 by 1. later on. 2 check gates for temperature. each with long queue.. okay.. i'm done with that.. then i proceed on for 2 minutes of walk.. huge queue infront of 2 lifts.. cos the only esculator refused to work... when i finally got down to the place to go.. i realized the train that i'm supposed to wait for has just left.. ..followed a flight of stairs down to take the bus.. waited again.. bus journey wasn't short.. ended up infront of a half open small door to squeeze through.. and go up a flight of stairs to collect me luggage.

the thing is. its not done yet. the way to the "exit". ended up to be a dead end.. at least all 4 motion censors door are not working.. i have had the temptation to climb through and decided against it.. = =.. the exit was nonetheless horrifying. due to the previous jams, 4 flights of passengers ended up at the exit together. and there's their family members/ friends.. 4 flights of them waiting outside..

first impression this time is the pollution [ grey sky ], 2nd, the heat [didn't feel it yet] 3rd. shit load of ppl. that i need not explain...

maybe its that i didn slp enuf ystd. but today i'm suffering frm serious headache since the change in altitude that hurt my eardrums.. i'm not sure if thats the cause but i did knock my head on the furnitures twice here.. ...the last hit was 5 minutes ago and it hurts now..

the above paragraph is just for entertainment of the loyal readers of my blog... = =. i hope i'll fully recover from the exhaustion and headache.. then would be able to get into my slimming down schedue xD its dry air here.. i'm constantly hydrating myself but i'm loving it. so long as its not polluted. aircons took the trouble of cleaning the air i guess. three cheers to the unsung heros.. <3

peace out. beijing <3s us all.

Last night in bt batok.

It will not be the last night for me in singapore since i'm rather sure i'll come back to visit my parents when i can.. but it is definitely the last night for bukit batok~ the place i've been in the last 10 years.. its still a peaceful place i guess.. it didn't change much.. but when i come back it will no longer be here.. somewhere much further.. i shall adapt ^^....

i mean.. c'mon.. a difference of a few miles would be nothing considering the 25 hour flight waiting for me... to the land far far away... i'm ready for a cultural shock. but that would most probably be 2 months later. i shall look only at the steps closely ahead of me incase of thinking too much xD

this time.. i really have everything packed up.. ready to go. said goodbye to my mug and my high ankle sneakers. put all the charms.. beads.. "fu"s into my pockets and everywhere... put on my black strapped watch.. handphone in the pouch.. wallet at hand.. laptop back in the bag. rdy to rock .. 2ml's flight. departing at 8.40. ... have to wake up by 6. did an online check-in only to realize more than half of the seats have been chosen.. to those who didn't know yet : we can book our seats 48 hrs before the departual.. pretty handy in snatching good positions. ^^.. for me i just got a decent windows seat..

i did not spend my last day-before-going-back-to-beijing rotting at home.. it was rather happening since i've got ky to pei me play and shop ~ ~.. like always.. i have always suffered from inconsistent performances... i can only win by average .. and i did xD. maybe the nxt time we meet she'd be pwning me.. oh well. hopefully she'll haha.

lunch at essential brew was.. 2 words, freezing delight. never sit under their airconditioner.. its freezing... and the tea-ingredients in food issn't very obvirous.. but the grilled dory fish [thats the name i think] goes pretty well with green tea sause and lemon. .. whatever.. angel thingy.. [drink] is good for ppl who like sour .. hahaha ky can't take it xD. the dessert is great. please refer to her blog for that details... however.. it added to the coldness that i'm already suffering from.. both from the icecream that went down my stomach and the freezer blowing right at me.. first time in sg did my teeth chatter.. for ppl who wanna try that feeling. follow the easy steps i took ^^.

bought myself a shaver.. and tooth paste for mum for sensitive teeth. both items being my first purchase. i honestly have no idea what to look out for.. but gillette mech 4 is said to be "all that a man needs".. or something.. must be satisfying. and spent a long time trying to figure out what pills to buy incase of immergency happen.. after all i'm chinese.. and i cant read english stuff on those boxes ~ ~.. heh

ben taught me how to transfer my phone numbers easily..

it was easy. rather.. to transfer 1 number.. takes only around 11 keystrokes / name+number
the problem is. i have to transfer 300+ contacts. of which i finished a moment ago.. DAMN PROUD of myself can. xD. ...but this time my thumb really cramped.. now we know motorola phones are not user friendly.. >
its getting late.. i need to catch an early flight 2ml.. ty for the years with me. my brothers and sisters.. i enjoyed those days. and i'll always stick around in msn. our fate don't end here, wont end here. cheers.

packed my clothes => problems

well. acturally i didn't do most packing. mum did. she wont trust me with those stuff myself.. if i packed then i'll surely bring alot lesser stuff.. and make sure i take minimal in my hands. perhaps finish all the packing in an hr or less... not with her help. but then again. i guess bringing clothes for 4 seasons aint a joke. there's so much stuff in there that there's no room for books... how the hell am i supposed to survive that flight when my laptop battery can only last for 2 hours if i let it operate in full gear.

the point is. its done. all tied up behind me at this moment in time. gotta shop for stuff 2ml.. i'm kinda unsure about how shld i arrange 2ml's schedule. but heck. lets take it step by step. .. the irritating part about packing early. is that we all tend to stuff the clothes we like to wear and easy to put together in the luggage... and then. the next few days wld be the hard times we run outta the usual wear.. at least its true for me.. EVERY SINGLE TIME.. i dont learn.. do i. oh well. i shall be impolite and wear random stuff 2ml i guess =X.

watched all episodes of resident evil today.. there are so many stuff that we can question.. like those details.. i shall just give random comments ><. like why the hell do zombies die by headshots when so many of them walk arnd with injuries on the head .. x. x if they can go on living for decades without food. and that their initial instinct is to feed... if there's no need for such a consumption of human flesh.. then probably it shldn be called feeding but instead.. eh.. violent assaults? back to the headshots. if its instinctive for them to move and attack living ppl.. and they can live like decades.. where did the energy that propel them come from.. solar powered zombies? woohoo... and stronger zombies [ other versions ] dont even die by shots in the head.. wonder why... kinda reminded me about cs... walking straight, at a constant pace is just stupid.. the blardy cross hair wld be waiting for your head to pass at that level.. 1 shot. that's good bye to the world.. one reason that those wall-clinging zombies and dogs are imba is because of their constant change of head level and high mobile nature. our eyes are built in such a way that we're more alert at scanning eye level objects and not up or under.. nxt time you guys play fps.. dont just walk straight. unless you're confident to pull the trigger on me first. i said goodbye to a few stuffs that have been with me since like forever.. i'll miss you ppl T. T~
bye bye v6.. you served me through my jc life. i like your cool flipping and we've had so much fun together.. ><.. rmbr that time you bungee-d without rope from the 4th floor? and the other time you went for a swim in rain water trapped in my pocket?
bye bye notes. death-note wanna be and my council handbook. you guys pei-ed me through so many boring lectures and tutorials.. we've ventured through the boundaries in the world of art.. poems.. drawings.. craps.. you guys are so cool.


we've not been together for long, but i treasure you nonetheless. ur so caty!. and nice to draw on.. black and white is just plain cool. especially on phones.


my bag. very subtle and rather durable. you've flew all over the benches.. council room.. lecture halls.. meeting rooms.. canteens.. my own room too.. sorry i'll have to leave you before you finish working on your potential pair of wings...



racoon and my rhino. i'm not going to say my last words just yet.. i shall stuff you guys into my bag if i still can. i cant leave you guys alone! i'm gonna take care of you ppl. dont worry. *grp hug*.


lastly. checklist for 2ml's purchase...

shaver.
toothpaste for mum
ear piece.
bandages.
some stuff to curb diarrhea..
and anything else that comes into mind.


alright i'm done. ky lets slp XD.

steamboat gathering about drugs and guns.

bowled today. injured my right thumb twice... i honestly dont know how is that actually possible but i did it.. although i'm not really proud of that i think its worth mentioning. hehe. its indicated as students [21/below] will recieve 2.20/ game but apparently that guy insists on charging us 3 bucks. i guess we're just too mature for cheap stuff.

kfc's "ultra mix" or whatsoever .. that one that consists of one drink + potato+ burger+ 1piece chicken is not really a good mix. or maybe its just that my stomach is having a hard time digesting all the junk that i've taken in lately.

there's smt about we guys. we will nvr want to buy stuff that is perhaps meant for girls.. or even hinting that possibility. zhihong asked us to choose a shoe out of the 4 he's interested. the only problem is that the checkered design does not suggest manliness so we kinda suspect that its meant for the other gender.. choosing something like that is the last thing that we want to do. so.. i guess he picked the 2nd most preferable. choices.. target audience... maybe converse shld divide male and female shoes.. save us the trouble and worry.

had steamboat with family friends. stuff i've learnt is that lamb tastes best compared to beef and pork... i've accepted the heat as a part of the steamboat experience.

the other 2 issues are more serious.. drugs. well. not exactly. its more about mmorpg. those that know me knows i'm really someone who play a shit load of that.. an uncle made a rather convincing comparison.. mmorpg vs drugs. face it. why are ppl addicted. [eg. me]. it gives a false sense of satisfaction, there's no strings of responsibility attached to it. and draws one into a different world that in theory does not exist.. [now if we go into the thing about virtual vs reality that wld be a huge topic.. so nah.].. the point is. the only difference is that drugs leaves the desire to take again both mentally as well as physically.. develop horrifying effects and its illegal. mmorpg on the other hand. legal. it too deludes the mind and is. perhaps mentally addictive. we all love a world without responsibility dont we? where we can just give up a life for a new one with out much attached cost to it? it has no physical after effects like drugs do but i think they are very much comparable in terms of mental effects. LIKE DRUGS. they wld relief pain from the blardy reality. but hey. we wont want that to affect our real lifes.. so. to hell with the addiction.



...sorry this is getting so long.


last one. about guns... or perhaps. in general. weapons. they tried to warn me to stay out of those stuff. i myself has no intention either. we never want to be threatened. by anything. especially when our life is on the line. guns is the most basic lethal weapon that we can think of. at the sight of it we know god damn well we're in danger. and the person who possessed the weapon is a threat. The thing is, although having one of those may probably "save us from danger" but it also frightens the bad intentioned + frightened opponent. and no we do not want that to happen. fear is a basic emotion that can snatch away our ability to think.. having a weapon just give an additional reason for the other parties to harm you.. just to protect themselves or perhaps eliminate you as a threat.

getting harmed in an attempt to protect oneself is stupid.. yet inevitable. applies to weapons, applies to the power and status as well. harm come in all ways.. and blardy hell we live a tiring life trying to save ourselves... trying to maintain the balance of power.. to possess enough to protect yet not threaten the other unsuspecting opponents to get the intention to harm.. unattainable.. imho.. even when ru philosophy from china suggests that its the best possible way.. who on earth did it =s.. even the philosophy itself gets challenged by critics..

this post is too long..

oh well.

good night ppl. thinking too much is stupid. stop thinking is perhaps the easy way to eternal joy =p

stay happy my friends.

avoiding the topic

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haha. tiring day. bought 3 black luggage bags, 1 black coat, a pair of black pants. hand carry shld be a laptop bag[black]. i have my pouch, wallet, handphone, belt, shoes, socks, spects. + natural hair and eyes. tadaa!. mib!

met a old grandpa of 70+. fit as a fiddle. he exercise on daily basis. consumes 3 litres of water / day. trashed youngsters in badminton.. formula for good health and longevity? maybe. but another motivation for me to pick up exercising and start taking care of my body before smt really bad happen..

why are there fountain pens so expensive. can they actually be used forever or something.. what exactly are the meanings behind giving a pen.. mum said names can be engraved on 'em so shld be expensive.. doesn't sound convincing does it? but ppl still buy 'em. I love them. well. at least they look nice. and you would probably not want to use them cos of the cost.. then they'd become a decoration.. not much value in that. right? perhaps we're overpaying for those! ...

c905 is a pretty popular phone huh? i do love it. and ps. black > bronze right XD!!!!

Jiannan got thrashed

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i beat jiannan in pool the other day ;D
i beat him in Hexic and reversi too ;DD
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Alright!!!! LETS JUMPSTART!

hahaha.. good god i got motivated into blogging.. more like influenced... once again. i shall try to keep it up.. in the days in uni. or perhaps into my career and for life o. o|.. whoa that's a blardy long time.

Thanks to ky for basically setting up everything on my blog.. =x. i shlda treasure it more than my own work! so hey. more motivation to keep blogging ^^.. its cool right!!!! this new home for my crap that will come arnd every now and then.

after monthes of slacking.. I'm now finally done with the visa stuff and packed up rdy to roll. tickets booked @ wed early morning. think i'll emo if friends come along so its great bah.

listening to the bgm itself while writing this post. oh man i wonder if i can keep my presentation in line with that cool song. on second thought. this is my place where i express myself so. HECK! listen to the fav song and read my thoughts. here's the package. aint changing it.

talkin' about that. i kinda recalled those old days when chiajone shouts those lines like "lets jumpstart" perrrrfect for the title for my first post i guess. haha.. everyone is everywhere now. trying to do all they can to excel.. and hopefully in days to come. gather. and be proud of each other. for me.. thats alot of stuff waiting for me. man's gotta do what a man's gotta do xD.

putting that in mind.. i'll have to face the imparting of life experiences of my family friends this weekend.. in better terms. wellwishes. its all good. i'll take all seriously. with no relatives arnd, they're more like relatives here.

woohoo.. shall end every post with something happy! good food for the nxt few days! and hell lota gatherings. so long as my headache wont haunt me in noisy environments it wld be great days!!! c'mon i've still got monday free! lets go out! whoever's reading this!